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If you are looking for tomatoes, you should be looking here. You're welcome.
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Finally
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Finally, I finished the work taht took me 3 weeks of sculpting, little by little. I named it "Wrong Again" Orchestra. The reason is explained on the wallpapers page.
I probably won't be posting many new works in the near future. I've decided to finish as much of the Seten icons as I can before I get completely bored of it. Right now though, I need a shower...
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Standby
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The site is temporarily unupdated, for no good reason. Mostly because my friends are here and I'm too busy doing funky stuffs with them. Currently I have one new graphic in progress, and am slowly finishing the spell icon set for Seten. I am also slowly sketching the graphic I promised Cecile so very long ago, and am writing another chapter to my new literary effort. So far it's not coming out too well. Just weird.
That said, I retire to my friends, who are currently playing Guilty Gear XX #Reload, and probably haven't even noticed that I left. Ah well, finished Soul Reaver 2 today. Sexcellent game, much prescribed. --Anton
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New Graphic
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Shard the Storm, a new wallpaper graphic I just finished today. There's still something strange about it, but I'm reasonably content to release it as it is. This one goes out to the Caitie. I love you.
Meanwhile, the Johan has come. We spent last night listening to The Mars Volta and The Spill Canvas, sitting on my balcony, talking about life, till about 4am. The Johan is good shit. We took some awesome pictures, one of which I plan to use for making another interesting graphic. Not entirely sure who this one will go to, but then, I'm not entirely sure it'll work out as I plan it, so heh...
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At Last!
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The 6 graphics are finally released. Find them at this page. The list is expected to grow as I also plan to make graphics for all my classmates. Naturally, this space will continue updating.
Aside from the mentioned projects, I recieved two new commisions, both of which I plan on completing. The question is only when... I'm already going mad from the insane workload, and am slowly running out of ideas...
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Dreadful News
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So I found out that Apophysis is not actually installed on mylaptop. That... That's rediculous. Good thing I keep archives of this sort of shit.
The other dreadful thing I did is remove all the beta releases of the 5 commisioned graphics for the teachers. As I'm now finishing the 6th, I figured I'd release them all together. They all have titles now as well.
It also looks like there's no chance I'll be able to do anything for Cansu before thursday. This uposets me most of all the aformentioned things. Unless I kill myself getting all this finished on wednesday, there won't be happiness to experience next week.
Got some new Apophysis renders coming soon though. Also a commision from Caitie that I need to consider seriously. Fuck, I'm working more now than during the actual school year!!!
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Under Pressure
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Nice party yesterday. I really enjoyed it.
That aside, here's what I did this morning for Mr. Meyers. I don't like it at all, but heh, despite being a pop art remake of an old graphic I did, I'm sure he'll enjoy it a lot.
Now I have untill the end of today (6 hours) to finish a graphic for Mrs. Thompson. I have some idea but definitely not a clear image in mind. Tomorrow I'll have to run around looking for frames and getting the prints. It won't be funky.
*sigh* I need a cig right now. Thanks to Andreas for being a lazy ass and keeping a pack at my place at all times.
Edit: With 12 minutes before the end of today, I managed to compose it. Observe.
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13 Years
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I just graduated, and went drinking with my mother. Then walked around with andreas for 2 hours, talking about life. On my way home I realized that I am completely insane. How's that for a fun day?
By the way, the first of a series of 6 graphics for the teachers is done for a while, and I'm almost done with the second. Here it is.
Edit: Two more are done, for Mr. Bush and Ms. Sychterz.
Also took the time to upload some new apophysis graphics, as well as reupload all the old in original size and without the logo. The new ones are Thunderdome Faries and Razorwave.
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Life is recieving a critical upgrade.
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So much to say, so little desire. We were filming our Call of Duty 2 movie today. It's all funky. I started listening to the Spill Canvas. It's kinda funky too. Machinae Supremacy owns everything though. Spastic nazis are fun to kill with your friends. That's the most I can say about life right now. :(
Oh, and I've been feeling extremely delirious for the past week. It's been getting worse and worse. Still, apparently, I can hold on to my reason every once in a while. Especially in the presence of other people... Yeah I need to rest but I'm still working on those 6 commisioned peices, only two of which are done as I type. It... sucks...
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Standby for Reprocessing
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Site is undergoing a heavy overhaul. I'm removing certain things entirely untill they are rewritten or fixed. Reorganizing the graphics page to be a bit more user friendly, and labeling some material as outdated, so that people won't read/view them and think that I officially suck at whatever it is that I do. Not that I actually don't :p but it's more professional that way.
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Happy Birthday Mordax!
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Follow these simple step by step instructions to receiving your present.
1. Follow your nose here and download the SmartFTP Client.
2. Use the following information in the small fields above.
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ftp.esr1.net
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3. Open up the Favorites dropdown thingy from the top and add whatever you see now.
This is a reliable, quick, ad-less ftp server kindly provided by my friend ESR1. You are restricted to 4GB of space (if I'm not mistaken), and if you need, a database can easily be set up with any type of forum software you want to install. Just look at his own site and know that the same thing is readily available to you, as he already has it installed.
On behalf of myself I wish you a very happy birthday and an eternity of fragging pleasures.
That said, I hadn't posted here in various eternities. This may be fixed soon. I'm just rediculously busy lately.
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Picture removed on request. It was funny though.
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Past week, all I've been doing is getting massively drunk every day. I've also talked to my mother about the possibility of me being bisexual. She said that what I described, sounds to her more like a symptom of maturity rather then bisexuality. She said that boys become men when they no longer see other guys as potential enemies, and can freely express their own emotional side. Therefore, if I'm not afraid to show my friendship even by kissing some guys, I'm more of a man then many others? This is certainly an interesting perspective, and one I enjoy.
Come to think of it, I've been quite free in expressing myself for a while now, except, to one person. I think... it's about time I talked to her about this. Regardless of her reaction, I want her to know how I feel.
Hopefully I'll get a real database based update system soon. The gears are in motion. Just have to catch ESR1 online. Soon is such a broad time though...
Regardless, things are happening. I'm writing a new novel, and rather successfully, but I ahve exams in 2 weeks and things are happening here and there endlessly. Oh right, on another note.
250 VISITORS LAST MONTH!!! This site had around 250 unique hits!!! Why!!! Who reads this?!?! Please, e-mail me and tell me why. I am extremely curious.
Love-- Anton :)
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That First Time
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I am currently experiencing a hangover. Please standby for processing. Results not guaranteed.
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Fragile Gravity
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When all is said and done we know what's right what's wrong. But does it matter then when all is said and done?
Yeah I got my hands on Come Clarity, the new In Flames CD. It's great. Absolutely magnificent from beginning to end. Only one song that I don't really like much. That's 1/13. ...aaaand yeah I hadn't posted in over two weeks. Here's the breakdown: I've been busy.
1. Ilkka was here for a week. We played a lot of games, ate a LOT of junkfood, and got really drunk on friday. All's good I spent a lot of money but whatever. It was totally worth it.
2. I watched the entirety of Hellsing... twice. Knowing that I'm no different then anyone else that's ever watched it, I'm just going to say that Alucard owns. Two things sprung from these 8 hours of my life.
1. I re-read Borges' "House of Asterion" and the two works inspired me to write something rather extraordinary, as well as create two other graphics in Flash. Both of them aren't going too well to be honest. One of them is actually half based on Zappa from Guilty Gear XX Reload.
2. I am looking forward into getting a weapon. If I already look more or less like Alucard (who I hypothesize is Cartaphilus), I feel incomplete without a gun. This is being settled slowly.
3. I am expecting a child. ...not really. Just wanted to throw that in.
4. I have one week to finish my IB Art stuffs. It lacks easiness. It is also quite stressful.
5. I really miss having a girlfriend now. Really really really.
6. I went drinking with Mr. Elman and had a very interesting discussion. He apparently diagnosed me with depression, which I've apparently had for the last 5 years. Being as entirely unprepared to deal with this as I am, well, I may as well just fix it. No point sulking like an emo bitch.
7. Maris, Liga, Rimants, Alex, Andreas and I played the "coin game". I've never hated beer with so strong a passion. Andreas basically lost, and Maris owned the actual coin bounce, but Andreas kept giving his turn to me and I wasn't that much less drunk. Anyway, Liga lost overall because she swallowed the coin. We call her the slot machine lady.
8. Maris and Liga tried reading Borges. Two sentances and they couldn't understand anything. I died laughing on the inside.
9. I have an enormously large penis.
I suppose that's all I wanted to say. Probably not even near all, but heh, whatever. I should really get a real database update working so I'm not too lazy to type some code up. Bah, it's not as if many people truly care. Love -Anton.
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Nope, not happening, and I'm fairly sure it won't be. So I'll resume posting regularly. There's an agenda to meet. Allow me to begin:
1. Ubin Kim is FTW. I've been reading his blog for a long time now and I thought I should mention him. Though his site's latest design is pure awful shit, he is a very creative writer, and he + his friend Kman form a very entertaining team. Thank you Ubin.
2. I will not be finishing my current novel. It's only 3 chapters from completion... and I actually might finish it, and then post a list of where I intended to take it. It was a very cool idea and would be amazing if it was realized. The problem is, I've taken interest in another project. A series of short stories based in another world, on another character, etc. I will however, in the final publication of my intention with the curent story, make clear my thoughts on it and who all the characters are. They (despite what you may think) are quite beautifully written to be what I wanted them to be. Thank you Oak-In-Head (private joke).
3. I've caught up with some songs I've meant to have for a long time, and I came across Katie Melua's "Nine Million Bicycles", and this article on it. The following statement clearly, fully and truly explains everything I have to say to whoever brought the issue up: WHO THE FUCK CARES!!! THAT ISN'T THE POINT OF THE SONG! IT'S ROMANTIC AND VERY NICELY WRITTEN! I recommend everyone get ahold of a copy. It is very well written, and though cheesy, and poppy, Katie has a very nice and charming voice. Thank you Katie.
4. There are lots of people reading this site!!!!!! I've had people come up to me and tell me that they recognized me, because they've been linked to this page. Why?!?! I do think I'm an interesting person, but I do wonder who actually cares enough to read this? Send me an email, I'm quite curious. Nonetheless, the fact alone makes me happy. Thank you Readers.
5. Finnish metal is funny. Thank you Ilkka (who is coming in 5 (yes 5) days!!!).
That should be all for a while. Many things not mentioned, but my life is too fast paced to discuss every little thing. Unfortunately, the things being left out are the ones that I personally consider most interesting, but the purpose of this page is for people to catch up with what I'm doing, not my inner thoughts. That said, I leave you. Love in abundance -Anton.
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I've not posted for something like 3 weeks. The reason is, I've been waiting for something to happen, but it's just not. I don't really know if it even will, but all signs point towards it. Otherwise...
I finished my custom tailored cloak today. Also bought a pimp hat. Looks really sexy together. I will be uploading many pictures because they are for t3h uberwin. Really hard to get into that thing though. It's so tight :)
Well, the real reason I'm posting is that I'm leaving to France for a snowboarding event in... 10 hours? Something like that. Going to get a little drunk so I can sleep knowing that I partied enough. Probably going to meet Lisa as well. Been a while since I last seen her :)
Not really much else to say. My life is going down a downward spiral, and I feel like I'm watching a dream that I never awakened from one day. Truly, when reality becomes hazier then fiction, you know you're really asleep.
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That's right. My home is the computer. Know how I studied for exams? I played PlaneShift, TrackMania Sunrise Extreme, and Thief 3. All week. Then wednesday and thursday we had a LAN party. Gearing up for an incredible war in Hearts of Iron 2, and have crushed Kefalonia. My navy is so owning, I think we'll be able to take britain too. Then, I somehow feel that we can kill Lukas. We just have to up our army a little.
The only problem is that my laptop is lagging up a bit, though I'm solving this soon. Recording Hiren's today, got my key and all driver CDs, etc. Just need a bit of effort, and it's mine. In fact, I'll go start now. Well at least in all my adventures I learned one thing. Irfanview is the greatest thing that's ever happened to man. Remember that.
Well now I gotta run get my residence stamp so that I may be allowed to mantain my living status in this awful country. See you later. I was however, surprised that Tucows has TWO servers in Latvia. Very, very sexy that. Oops the shell just crashed.
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Total Alteration
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I should have known. When I slept for 13 hours, my body was preparing. It was preparing for something great. I thought it would be something artistic. Instead, it was philosophical.
Me, Mr. Elman and Andreas have been having a discussion for 3 days straight, about morals, about reasons to be good, and about ways in which we may achieve heaven on earth. This discussion changed my view on life dramatically. I won't go into details, but it now gave me a reason to live, besides just my instinctal fear of death, which was my sole reason for living before now. That wasn't the end of it though. My life is forever changed, but one thing had to happen before the lid was sealed.
Once I was walking home tired from squash practice. Two not drunk men came up to me and said things like "Why aren't you smiling? Life can be so good, why waste time being depressed when you can be happy?" Considering that this is a fairly antisocial country, I was surprised. The two of them made me think about what I do to make people happier on a daily basis.
Last night was Chris's birthday. Me, and Mantas were walking Cansu home. We split. They told me I looked depressed (I was quite happy, but just very thoughtful of the events preceding this one). I told them that I was going to walk around town because I had a lot to think about. They left. I went and sat down in the park. Almost started crying because my thoughts were somehow invaded by Ale and I realized how much I miss her. Maybe not so much her, but the idea of having someone with whom I can share my silence. The time I spend alone is the most amazing time ever. So many incredible ideas come to me... I only wish I had someone with whom I could share this time. Ale was one, and the only such person in my life. I need another muse...
Well anyway, walking home, three guys, not drunk either, just came up to me. All they wanted to do was shake my hand and hug me. I was a little suspicious, but after I left all my belongings were with me. They were just three very nice guys, and I'm glad I acted nice in return instead of being scared. They were older then me, significantly, but I just wasn't afraid. I knew I was doing the right thing. This event, though it happened again, has officially sealed my fate. I know now what I want to do in life.
The other thing is, "Faint Heart never won Fair Lady". The implications of this little quote on my life are enormous. I've decided that uncertainty is the stupidest reason not to do something. Wisdom however, is not. I'll write more on that later. Got to finish my art project so I can spend the entirety of tomorrow studying for exams. I think, if I dedicate another 2 hours to it, I'll be able to say that I'm content with it. It's pretty good already. Just a little... TOO cartoony in one part.
Well, before I go, I must say that I've also been having some interesting thoughts on my relationships with girls I know. Guys have no problem telling me anything. Some can even do so while exposing some weak sides of themselves, because they know I'll listen and understand. Understand is what I always strive to do. Girls however, have a more caucious approach. Why? Because they still see me as a possible attraction target. I do not know a single woman of roughly my age that may look upon me as a friend and ONLY a friend. Without exception, they all see in me a possible boyfriend, or at least a sex related potency.
That's enough raving for now. Love-- Anton
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My life hasn't exactly been the epitome of my view of a great life. I've been hit here and there for the past 3 days, but for the most part doing allright, I guess. Some girl-related problems, schoolwork to do, a very ambitious art project, deadlines creaping on like brazillian ants. At least I slept 13 hours last night and had a very interesting talk with Mr. Elman, which, though did not teach me anything I did not already know or consider my prorogative in life, helped me organize it. I'm really glad we wasted that english class.
I've been thinking a lot lately. So much that it almost renders me incapable of conversation with anyone. I noticed that I quite literally speak only about a third of the time I normally do, and a lot of people have commented that I look depressed. Please learn for the last time people, if I look depressed, it means my face muscles are relaxed. This in turn means that I must be not caring about my motor functions, which leads to the point. I am THINKING. When I'm deep in thought, I look depressed. I am never actually depressed because I am a generally happy person. I mean, if you knew me even a little bit, you'd understand this.
Though I don't think anyone, including myself, understands the mechanism that we so frequently refer to as my brain. It works in such mysterious ways. For example, I slept through new years eve. I just felt like sleeping, so I went to bed. I woke up at 4am and mysteriously started composing a letter. It is, to this day, the most beautiful and romantic love letter I have ever written to anyone. It took me two hours of just lying in bed in a semi delirious state, composing it word for word, editing, rearranging, structuring it untill it was perfect. Then I sat down and wrote it.
I never sent it though... and I don't think I will. It all depends on the recipient and subject of this letter. If she decides that she is actually interested in me and drops her childish cover of intrigues and jealousy... I mean, I see her looking at me all the time, doing things so that I'd pay more attention to her. Well, it's her choice. I won't stand by her forever. There's other people in the world.
Yeah I wish I actually was writing that writeup on china. I will though, but not soon. Exams next week, and then it's Winter-een-mas (which we are celebrating early this year) and only then some free time. Though this doesn't matter because today I talked to DAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! God damn I miss him so much... Really gotta go do something for my mother though. More later.
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Allright, I'm back. Brought everyone a present, and already managed to hook up with Edgars and Andreas for a nice chat tonight. Then played Thief 3 for... 3 hours? Something like that.
In my travels I met some very interesting people, seen incredible things, and decided that I want to live in the small town of Pingyao when I'm older. I was completely charmed by it, and I met two cute waitresses who were extremely nice and who both told me they liked me. Both 18 and both forbidden to marry till they're 23 by the internal affairs ministry of the People's Republic of China. I have 5 years :D:D:D
That is, if I was serious of course... But they were very nice and I wouldn't mind marrying a chinese woman tbh. They are all so beautiful and nice, as if this is also a law.
Overall China changed me a lot, as a person. I've realized that for the past month I've been losing sight of who I was and what my priorities were. All the different people I met in China helped me reflect on my own behavior and reminded me of myself. I feel now that I know who I am, and am confident in my abilities. Hopefully this is here to stay.
The other thing is, it changed my perception of food. My diet has been of ultimate health. Rice, water, green tea, occasional noodles with tomatoes and garlic. I lost... wait let me check.
Holy shit I thought I lost at least 5kg, but now I see that I've gained them all back, and weigh my normal weight Which is good to be honest. It's unhealthy to be as thin as even I regularly am.
Well to finish this off, I'll mention what I'm writing a full report with over 400 pictures to choose from. I trust it will be a very entertaining read, as I have much to say about China, my favorite country on earth. Tomorrow is Cansu's birthday. I have prepared a very, very special present :)
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Right, I'm off to China. See you all in 2 weeks, I do (more often then not) love you. My laptop will be there with me so internet, where available, willbe heavily abused. Too bad Rudolph won't have it in Ischgl...
PS: When you go to Frenchies with Andreas, Edgars, Cansu and Maris, and Andreas gets a beer, and Maris does some weird crap that ultimately ends up with absinth extract in Andreas' beer, DO NOT sip from it heavily. Absinth extract is fucking liquid LSD allright. My eyes were flickering yellow and purple as I was walking home (though not drunk, despite having drunken Alexej under the table) and even after waking up my world is still spinning both left and right simultaneously.
Anyway, got a flight in 2 hours. I'll be sure to bring everyone a nice communist China flag or star or something. Mao hat. :)
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So I woke up at 7am to go to school. I put clothes on, but the dream I was having was particularly interesting, and I wanted to see how it ended. So I went back to sleep for 5 minutes, or, 7 hours. I woke up at 2pm, having missed the entirety of the school day.
But my adventures did not end. Not only did I feel stupid on the inside, but I felt it physically as well. My head was swimming, my thoughts lacked any form of clarity, and I couldn't concentrate on anything despite the effort.
So then I thought it would be funny to walk around outside barefoot. I made a lap around my house and walked back up the stairs. Numb to the bone, I had three cups of hot chocolate, with a concentration of 2 chocolate to 1 water. It was really more like fudge, and tasted horrible. However, it was an excellent doze of sugar. I had three.
So now, my body spazzing out, my mind devoit of any reason, and with nothing to do, I tried playing games. Couldn't concentrate. Then I put on death metal from the early 90s. Somehow, though today's metal is more melodic and catchy, it lacks the deepness of thought present in death metal of old. Then I tried playing games while listening to this music. Nothing seemed to be working.
Since about 4pm I had chapter 21 of Flight of Aelisar open on my desktop. However, come midnight, I realized that I had written 3 paragraphs in the past 8 hours. Though this was not particularly inspiring on its own, the music really lifted my spirits (old In Flames songs give me a very nostalgic feeling) and I began writing. Three pages were completed by 3am. Not very fast, but the quality amazed me. I went to bed with the greatest and most careless feeling of satisfaction, because I knew my work was good. I mean, even Tren liked it (though he abhored the little scrimage).
So that was my day. Fun eh? Now I edited the chapter a bit, uploaded it, and am waiting for Lukas and Andreas to come so we can play some more Hearts of Iron before I leave to china on friday. Oh, that, and Alexej is one of the funniest guys I know. Man I missed him :p
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Version 0.9 "VERY Final"
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Not a word.
I added one small feature that I somehow did not think of earlier. It doesn't work well in Firefox because Firefox sucks. But heh, whatever. Hopefully the dramatic eloquence of version 1.0 will not come about without a strong base to constitute such a large jump.
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Version 0.8 "final"
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Now it is definately done. The files that are not suposed to be seen are made unavailable, though they remain in the lists. The copyright notice hangs everywhere, where it is required. The logo is redesigned, though it does not look like what I originally intended it to be. However, this all doesn't matter in light of me being done.
Now, it is 2:30am. I'm tired, but excited at the same time. This was all very much worth it, and I hope the new logo design does not make people puke massively. I'm really too tired to pass good judgement on its artistic qualities, but I will see tomorrow. Hope it's allright...
Much love, good night.
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I've been doing a lot of overhauling. Editing some images, placing copyright notices, and even added an entry to the Supererogatory section of the site. Also, new avatar image. Very bleak and unclear. I quite like it to be honest.
In other news, the glorious armies of the USSR have entered the baltics, Finland, Sweden, Norway, Romania, Bulgaria, Greece and Turkey under my superior command. Our brothers in Nazi Germany are also expanding, but not without the help of our reliable mobile armor divisions and motorized infantry. Through a series of alliances, the UK, and various south american countries, all declared war upon our belligerent nation. However, we are assembling a large force to take them very soon.
But alas, dreadful news. Our sworn enemies, the USA (though allowing us passage through the Panama canal) have invaded and annexed the entirety of north america. Such brazen actions are not to go unpunished, for they took even the spanish province of Gibraltar! May they be crushed by the glorious armies that proudly serve our mighty nation.
Wow I love Hearts of Iron 2. :)
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Important Notice
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Lava is entirely safe to drink. You can hold it in your hands without inflicting severe burns onto them. Lava sculpting actually used to be a hawaiian national sport, before the europeans came and said it was dangerous, because they didn't know that lava is actually completely safe and tastes like taffee. See this link for more information.
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Undone in Time
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It seems I jumped a little ahead of myself with the whole "DONE" thing. There's still some things to fix up that I'll get around to sometime probably not very soon. Still, all the content is up, so that's a happy time.
I was writing in my research workbook for Art class today, and I realized that I was inadvertantly writing the premise of my second novel, against my will. I then thought about it some more, and remembered an earlier discussion with Tren, that revealed that the three principal character of the first book are also three differenst sides of me, and anyone who reads it in detail will understand me much better after doing so. So here's the conclusion: I am entirely inseparable from my work.
I noticed this back when I was writing Midway Through Infinity. Creon was in too many ways me to describe, but at the same time, Araym wasn't that far off either. Nilou herself was partly of my character, and only Stream remained something entirely unlike what any of my personalities are, and yet so unlike what I intended him to be. Now the three main characters of my current book symbolize me almost completely. The ever vigilant healer asociated with light, the piromaniac demon bathing in self confidence, and the observant and thoughtful, yet therefore depressed philosopher. All these things are me.
I intended the son of Simri, Aerym, to be me in every way, and though not the main character, he would be the one to show me in full light. However, I no longer know how I plan to do this without making Aelisar's own daughter remain as I want her to. I suppose it would be possible, but I'd need to experiment with an entirely different mood set and writing style. This means, experimenting with music and lighting in my room, as well as the time of day in which I write.
I've also developed an interesting theory concerning children and dolls, but I'll have to make sure Cansu is ok with it before I post it anywhere. She'll consider me the antichrist if I just immediately assume it as my primary theory on children's behaviors. Wish me luck surviving in that conversation. :)
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Version 0.7
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EVERYTHING IS DONE! GREETINGS!
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Version 0.6
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Let's see... Where to start...
First of all, new avatar picture. I can now choose them interchangeably. This is great fun.
Secondly, the art pages will need to undergo a slight bit of revision. I'll need to disable the links to any and all works that are going towards my IB Art exibition. That includes 10 of the Apophysis works. I am not very pleased. Perhaps I can display only 5, but picking out 5 would be very difficult. Still, I should manage. Anyway, as of whenever I get around to it, consider them unavailable for viewing pleasures.
The other great news is that 10 chapters of Flight of Aelisar are up in the writing section. I had to revise them slightly. This took 2 days of consistent effort, pulling story strings together, making sure the writing style was consistent with the character's feelings and fatigue, etc. Of course, if I was focused, it would have taken me 6 hours max, but it took 2 days of 3 hours each. Oh well.
And finally, I'm going to comment slightly on why I've been so quiet lately. The reason is, I've been thinking. Thinking on what you ask? Well, the obvious. At least it seems completely and totally obvious to me. I'm just not sure if I should do anything about it. Confused yet? It will all makes sense when (or rather if) it happens.
Haha you read the whole thing, didn't you? Well, so long. Much love.
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Version 0.5
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The art section is done! *celebrates*
I could write more but I don't care. Writing is next. It should take a long time as I'll need to think of pictures for every single damn peice, but I will. I'm also starting an oil painting, and am enjoying Call of Duty 2. Se um... see ya.
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Version 0.4
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Wow, some 4 days later, I actually more or less finish the art section. Everything is up and working, except for the Photography, but that will be up soon. I have most of the pictures sorted. Just need to write pages for them and organize them into categories. Hopefully it will be up by monday.
Yes monday, because Noam is here this weekend, and for two weeks. He has already landed 2 hours ago, and in another two I will be seeing him for the first time in half a year. Then we're going to party all night. Good times guaranteed.
The writing section will follow after the Photography is done. But even so, one thing bothers me. Some of these works are going towards my Art class exibition. The IB might not like me posting them up on the web before I recieve my certificate. This will require double checking with sir Elman.
Wow my keyboard's batteries just died. Been almost 3 years. Onscreen keyboard sucks, but improves aim for FPS games i bet.
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Version 0.3
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Well I fixed ESR's stupid mistake (don't ask what it was, i just fixed it) and all images work fine with extensions. To be honest, I have virtually *NO* idea what went wrong, but I'm just glad it works now. Also I fixed a weird index page presentation bug in FireFox, which was quite annoying as I didn't really know what was wrong. There is still a bug but it isn't as evident and I hope nobody cares.
The Landscape page is 3/4 done if you disregard the lack of avatars, which I will get to ASAP. However I also have a lot of homework tonight so I might not get around to implimenting the pic viewing javascript interface. Or I may not have an interface at all. That would solve all problems.
Which reminds me. I should reupload the 12 MB worth of pictures as soon as I'm done processing another two that I found almost accidentally while backing up files on my laptop in preparation for a low level format and a complete reinstall. 10 GB of stuff had to be transfered. Oh my poor, poor router...
In other news, Noam is coming on friday!!! But these are suposed to be technical updates as technically the site isn't even done yet. Back to work you lazy fool!
I just realized that it was my mistake all along. The images were .png and the case sensitive server was looking for .PNG. Sorry ESR, all is well now.
Decided not to have a picture viewing interface. It was too much a bother and I had to take a lot of silly things into account, so I'll just leave it up to the user. Yes this means the icons in the Landscapes page are *ALL* clickable now, and will return the full size images. Also I changed some internal directory structuring to a somewhat new system that should work a bit better.
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Version 0.2
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ESR was kind enough to offer me 1GB of space + a subdomain + ftp access. Unfortunately I had to change a lot in the site's code to get it to comply with his very picky server, but now it works and all can see it online.
The Landscapes page is half done by the way, except for the actual pictuers. They are uploaded, but just not linked, as I had not designed the interface for that yet. The new chanegs have actually not been tested by me in any browser but Opera, but I'll do everything tomorrow. Can't be bothered to do anything right now. Must sleep at 3:30am.
Ugh, this is hard. I had to slightly restructure the directory system as well. But at least I have a convenient and reliable host. Plan for tomorrow: Fix bugs that may have arisen with all the alternations, finish Landscapes page, start writing the javascript for picture viewing. The first two should be easy enough. The third... we'll see. Now, sleeeeeeeeep.
Decided to check bugs now before it is too late. IE seriously hates me, so I am completely removing the feature that makes that line 10 pixels high instead of two. I also noticed that the Mountain folder contained content from both itself and the Sky folder, though the Sky folder had the Sky content intact. This is very odd but I fixed it too. Go faster stupid upload!!!
Now FireFox is acting up. Opera, you truly are the best browser ever. And the ftp upload of big files I don't evne have links to yet will be going on for another 10 or so minues. This is superbly irritating...
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Version 0.1
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Very crude text entering format. Testing graphic layout and all. Looking pretty good so far but this post still needs an avatar. Going to do that now after I play some CoD2.
This is actually quite a well working project. Of course it looks nothing like what I intended, which si true for 90% of what I do anyway, but nonetheless I am proud of how its turning out. Now I just need to get the avatars working well and I have a solid ground from which to build the whole thing.
Woohoo The pic is done. May change it later, but three layers of filtering looks pretty good, though the pic itself isn't that amazing. I'll start to populate the art page soon because that will actually be the easiest one.
Art and writings pages are done, or rather, the main pages. No sub categories are complete yet. I won't do the extras page quite yet because I'm not entirely sure what to put there, so I will focus on structuring the subcategories for the writing. Also fixed a very annoying bug in Firefox.
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